it always has been rollercoaster
as soon as u made me smile on the peak
its always a slide downwards the next moment
when you make me feel so helpless
when all i wanted was to be there for you
but all i got was the barrier, the wall
but i understand
its just me that cant find the courage to take that step ive always wanted someone to take towards me


but i always starkly remind myself that
this is a rollercoaster i boarded myself
with you ocassionally beside me taking the peak together
but most of the time me alone taking the plunge


but i never did like rollercoasters
i nv dared sit on one
id rather horse around below the rollercoaster, when it was at its purest


after tt particular plunge into the basement
piece by piece, i climbed back up
only to see you on top again
by then player 2 didnt want the game to continue anymore


i once wanted to be yours to hold, till then
till when you need me no more
(or when i no longer have the energy to hold even myself)
i guess thats now
i guess i stepped out of the rollercoaster.